I am pretty happy that for one someone read my infamous “Pastors Daughter” blog, which is more like a lashing and then they responded by writing on their site about it. I loved a few things that they said, but don’t want to quote it because honestly I don’t know how to properly cite it. I am excited because it was meant to strike with force but ended up hitting the wrong audiences. At the time it was written I was in the middle of a crazy ass time in my life and looking back am surprised I didn’t write more honestly. I guess the thing that bothers me is that they mentioned something about not following God because of his followers. Well I assume that is what they were hinting at. This type of approach is classic, and one I COMPLETELY understand. One of the things I hate most is a Christian who claims no evil. That is bull, if becoming a Christian was a quick fix, perfect person maker than it would have many more followers. My dad always says “People always leave the church because of the other people. When in reality we are the most messed up ones, otherwise we wouldn’t be here.” That is one of the few things I understood that he said. Let us just go by numbers, since that was the format from the cited text.
1. I am not the perfect Christian. In fact I am probably the worst one out there, this I cannot deny. What I am not, is a hypocrite. I believe I am to do my best, which usually isn’t that great. I do not claim to be perfect or anywhere near it. I imagine that God is sitting up on a throne somewhere shaking his head at my antics. What I do have is faith, and belief and thankfully a forgiving God. I don’t understand how I can be attacked for airing out my dirty laundry when most people who challenge christianity are begging for someone to be real with them. I am being real. You know how when you meet a crazy person and then they tell you they are on their meds, and you wonder what kind of psycho they are when they don’t take drugs? Well thats me, imagine me without God. If I wasn’t saved and had read “Pastors Daughter” I would have ripped the author to shreds. Luckily the person who wrote about it was decent, and I appreciated what they said honestly.
2. Please do not think that by me tearing churchgoers a new one that I am attacking God. The majority of church people make me so angry it’s unhealthy, but you must ask yourself why would I still call myself a christian then? Well I don’t follow churchgoers I follow my God. Trust me it bothers me that by my writing or actions I could turn someone away from God, but it would bother me more if I was a meth doing preacher on tv asking for money you see. I would rather be real with my sin and issues, than put up a fake front. If God had requested me to be fake, I would never have listened.
3. I guess my point is that I was poking holes in the hypocrisy not the God.
I don’t really have much else to say it seems. If the author of the other article comes back to read this thank you for seeing that it was human. I was honestly grinning like a child when I read your post, I appreciated it. If you happen to live nearby I would love to have coffee, it would be interesting.
